For the last several months I have made several visits to this transit station near my studio. Sometimes when I was at my most peaceful state I would walk to the fifth level and test my patience.

I learned a while ago that anger is a form of depression. Since I am my father’s son I wanted to find a way around this problem.These images are a study of my confrontation with my battle with anger and acceptance. I think somehow these walks and this simple test has begun to break something down.

Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel for my project Fulcrum Points.

For weeks and weeks now I have been making the same walk. Each time I see something different. On this day in particular as an exercise I walked up and down the stairs several times to see what I noticed that was similar and what was the same. I found this pattern on the ground between levels 2-4 of the five levels. I thought about the distance between me and my father and I thought about these walks in general term and what I was getting from them. What I realized is its not so much how you start or how you end its the stuff in the middle and these three stories that had the pattern were literally the fulcrum point between the bottom and the top. These levels are the most important to reaching a goal. I realized that this project makes me feel good but inevitable doesn’t solve a thing but what it does is give me insight and inspiration to communicate and understand my father better. It gives me peace and that that was the point of all of this and in that its one of the most self fulfilling things I have ever done for myself.

Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel.

The little things seem to be coming together. 

Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel.
The little things seem to be coming together.

Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel.

Accidents outside of paint stores.

Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel.

A door without a way in.
Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel.

A door without a way in.

Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel.

Regret and Photography.
I thought that this creative act was beautiful … Now I wish I would have torn it off instead of taken this photograph. Every time for years and years driving home I would look at this tree and be amazed that something so beautiful could grow right in-between the on-ramp to the freeway and the freeway itself. Now the tree is gone. Im glad I have the image but would much rather see it passing by on the freeway.
Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel.

Regret and Photography.

I thought that this creative act was beautiful … Now I wish I would have torn it off instead of taken this photograph. Every time for years and years driving home I would look at this tree and be amazed that something so beautiful could grow right in-between the on-ramp to the freeway and the freeway itself. Now the tree is gone. Im glad I have the image but would much rather see it passing by on the freeway.

Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel.

A little bit of patience and a little luck.
Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel.

A little bit of patience and a little luck.

Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel.

I was driving the other day and was nearly blinded as the sun reflected off this round shape that was smashed into the street. I could help but pull over and look at it from different angles. I was taken to another place and just observed how it transformed as I moved around it. I can’t explain it but it was almost meditative. I couldn’t help but think of my father’s love for space and how that allows him to escape and how this project has allowed me to do the same. 
Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel for my project Fulcrum Points.

I was driving the other day and was nearly blinded as the sun reflected off this round shape that was smashed into the street. I could help but pull over and look at it from different angles. I was taken to another place and just observed how it transformed as I moved around it. I can’t explain it but it was almost meditative. I couldn’t help but think of my father’s love for space and how that allows him to escape and how this project has allowed me to do the same. 

Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel for my project Fulcrum Points.

So So So Much Distance Between Us.
Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel for my project Fulcrum Points.

So So So Much Distance Between Us.

Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel for my project Fulcrum Points.

In-between Solid and Liquid.
 Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel for my project Fulcrum Points.

In-between Solid and Liquid.

 
Inspired by conversations with my father Jim Schaedel for my project Fulcrum Points.